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"it better be important."

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[razzledazzles]

[Wait, is this... Did he want him to tell him? Did he need his company in these trying times? Of course! How stupid could he be to make it get to this point, where Hak actually admits it!]

You're not weird at all! I'll spend time with you whenever you'd like! No, I want to spend time with you as much as possible! - Jae-Ha

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( this is so confusing. but he's as bewildered as the "spend as much time possible" thing as he is flustered. and then the subsequent perfunctory anger at his own mush emotions. )

don't be embarrassing...

i guess this is what love does to someone, huh? -Hak

( better break this moment by teasing him and making him flip out about this mephisto guy lol )

[razzledazzles]

[HE'S ADMITTING HIS LOVE FOR YONA?! THIS IS SERIOUS—]

There's nothing wrong with it at all! Now, tell me where you are and I'll jump to you right away. - Jae-Ha

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( WHOA...THIS IS SERIOUS!!! but a part of him feels nice that jae-ha wants to be with him so bad??? god he's so selfish. he really is not used to wanting things at all. being able allow himself to want them. )

you don't have to do that... i didn't mean to vie for your attention like that. i really didn't think you'd be the type to settle down ...

ugh. don't make me say it.

you should spend time with the person you love or whatever. -Hak

[razzledazzles]

[Wait. Time slows a little as he reads this, and then re-reads it, and then things slowly click into place. He'd probably laugh if the implication wasn't that he loved Mephisto.]

Just who are you thinking I love?! - Jae-Ha

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( this dense idiot. is he going to get all weird and in denial again. )

me, obviously. -Hak

[razzledazzles]

[This is it, this is the moment he tells Yona that Hak is out and about.]

Shut up. I'm only trying to help you. If you don't do something quick, then someone else will step into your place with Yona dear. - Jae-Ha

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( he hates when he jokes about that, but he won't indulge it. he already feels he's screwed up twice already: once by not telling her about soo-won when he first had the chance, then twice by being the one to break her heart. there isn't any way he can even bring up any recent developments from home ... all in all, this is hell for him. best to deflect. )

like you, droopy eyes? -Hak

[razzledazzles]

[Normally, he might tease him by saying something like maybe. But this time, he knows Hak too well.]

I'm out of the picture. She doesn't remember me, after all. - Jae-Ha

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i don't think i should be thinking about that right now anyway. -Hak

[razzledazzles]

I haven't gotten sick yet. She'll be fine. But she does need you at her side. She's getting worse. - Jae-Ha

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i know. it's because i made her heart weak.

i'll be there. don't go lecturing me anymore. -Hak

[razzledazzles]

Wait. There's something that I should tell you first. I don't know if you've realized... She's hallucinating. It's not just any sort of hallucinations, Hak. - Jae-Ha

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( he already knows what that means, please kill him now. dreams are bad enough — he knows because he still occasionally wakens from some that make him have to come to terms with things all over again. but everything's too fresh for her. she doesn't deserve this.

but maybe this is a cruel way of letting her still exist in that reality that Hak helped steal from her. if he wasn't here, maybe she could have just never have known. or experienced any loss, period. )



thanks for looking after her. -Hak

[razzledazzles]

[He... he doesn't know if he knows enough, but he doesn't want to type that name for him. His own suffering doesn't matter in the scheme of things. Hak doesn't need to be bothered with exact moments like this. He just needed to be warned.]

You don't have to thank me for something like that. I'll go with you whenever you want to see her again, so just let me know. - Jae-Ha

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i don't need you staying with me this time. you've done enough. -Hak

[razzledazzles]

She could mistake you for someone else. It would be better for two of us to be there at once. - Jae-Ha

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i'll deal with it.

look can we

not talk about this? -Hak

[razzledazzles]

[He's not helping. Just like how he couldn't help Yona while appearing to be Soo-won. He's stuck.]

Right. - Jae-Ha

i hate the forum signatures

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thanks.

i guess i don't feel as lost with you.

( it's different than how it was with soo-won, and maybe that's why he can accept it into his heart. it still surprises him, though, how much he needs him. alarms a part of him. )

i just don't want you having to deal with my messes. -Hak

~*~ Jae-Ha @)-,-- ~*~

[razzledazzles]

If I remember correctly, back home you were still in the middle of dealing with mine. It's not a problem, Hak. If you make me too concerned, I'll have to do something embarrassing to check on you. - Jae-Ha

xXxXx sOn HaK xXxXx

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you don't need to. i meant what i said earlier, anyway. i know i tease you about it, but i'm happy for you. -Hak

[razzledazzles]

You're reading it all wrong. There's nothing deep, so stop looking into it. - Jae-Ha

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you're suited to each other. though i'm going to have to make sure he treats you like you deserve. -Hak

[razzledazzles]

Why are you making it sound like I'm some sort of damsel? Unlike you, Hak, I'm not wholly devoted to one person. I'm still young enough to be living free. - Jae-Ha