( he hates when he jokes about that, but he won't indulge it. he already feels he's screwed up twice already: once by not telling her about soo-won when he first had the chance, then twice by being the one to break her heart. there isn't any way he can even bring up any recent developments from home ... all in all, this is hell for him. best to deflect. )
Wait. There's something that I should tell you first. I don't know if you've realized... She's hallucinating. It's not just any sort of hallucinations, Hak. - Jae-Ha
( he already knows what that means, please kill him now. dreams are bad enough — he knows because he still occasionally wakens from some that make him have to come to terms with things all over again. but everything's too fresh for her. she doesn't deserve this.
but maybe this is a cruel way of letting her still exist in that reality that Hak helped steal from her. if he wasn't here, maybe she could have just never have known. or experienced any loss, period. )
[He... he doesn't know if he knows enough, but he doesn't want to type that name for him. His own suffering doesn't matter in the scheme of things. Hak doesn't need to be bothered with exact moments like this. He just needed to be warned.]
You don't have to thank me for something like that. I'll go with you whenever you want to see her again, so just let me know. - Jae-Ha
( it's different than how it was with soo-won, and maybe that's why he can accept it into his heart. it still surprises him, though, how much he needs him. alarms a part of him. )
i just don't want you having to deal with my messes. -Hak
If I remember correctly, back home you were still in the middle of dealing with mine. It's not a problem, Hak. If you make me too concerned, I'll have to do something embarrassing to check on you. - Jae-Ha
Why are you making it sound like I'm some sort of damsel? Unlike you, Hak, I'm not wholly devoted to one person. I'm still young enough to be living free. - Jae-Ha
tell your boyfriend that i don't want to see stuff like that though. i don't need to know what you two get up to and i already know about the kind of stuff you like. -Hak
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like you, droopy eyes? -Hak
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I'm out of the picture. She doesn't remember me, after all. - Jae-Ha
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i'll be there. don't go lecturing me anymore. -Hak
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but maybe this is a cruel way of letting her still exist in that reality that Hak helped steal from her. if he wasn't here, maybe she could have just never have known. or experienced any loss, period. )
thanks for looking after her. -Hak
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You don't have to thank me for something like that. I'll go with you whenever you want to see her again, so just let me know. - Jae-Ha
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look can we
not talk about this? -Hak
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Right. - Jae-Ha
i hate the forum signatures
i guess i don't feel as lost with you.
( it's different than how it was with soo-won, and maybe that's why he can accept it into his heart. it still surprises him, though, how much he needs him. alarms a part of him. )
i just don't want you having to deal with my messes. -Hak
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I think that's your deserved punishment for saying things that aren't true just to tease your elders. - Jae-Ha